Thursday, October 17, 2013

So Long, Yeah.

My last post was on July 2013. Wow so long. Anyway i'm currently facing my final year exam and just few papers more until it ends. Too busy with so many things till we don't realize that 2014 is just around the corner. About two months more and we'll meet 2014. This is so unbelievable. But it's good too, so next year i'll never be in the same class with the most fake guy who always wearing his mask all the time. I just hate fake people, even i'm a fake person but i know when i should stop being fake. Nah it's like you can be fake sometimes just to save yourself or play safe or trying to make someone's nose clean. But, not ALL the time. 

This is... err.. a post. A post that i found at azwan's wordpress. I like to read some posts on his wordpress but lately he stops posting and idk why;

We’ve made a lot of friends over the years,
lost many,
had many,
made some real friends,
had some fake ones,
and lost some friends
These are usually the friends that hurt the most, but you just don’t realize it.
You stop talking,
stop hanging out,
someone moves,
someone goes to a different school,
you both make new friends,
but you never stop to think until later,
your new friends replaced the old ones.

Sounds wise isn't it? Nah it's absolutely wise. So think about it.

Anyway I guess a month ago I took part in Program Pembinaan Bakat Tunas Remaja Peringkat Kebangsaan 2013 which had been held at Golden Straits Villas, Port Dickson. It was kinda boring at first because i'm the most demure and taciturn entrant there. Hahaha it was really funny how my apartment mates make jokes of me, then we laugh and laugh and laugh without we realize it's 3 am already and we can't sleep and that was the last night we were there and and on that night i started to show my own temperament. Lol.  It's nice to have some friends from different country such as Sabah and Pahang and Selangor :) but actually i hope i'll go for the next round which is called as Minggu Penulis Remaja even i haven't finish my cerpen on that time lol.

till we meet again, bye.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

People Are Just People

She speak her mind,
yet she’s not a bitch.
But you call her that.

She have friends that are guys,
yet she’s not a slut.
But you call her that.

He like to eat,
yet he’s not a fat.
But you call him that.

He mess up at times,
yet he’s not an idiot.
But you call him that.

I’m myself,
yet I’m not a loser.
But you call me that.

I put labels on people. Sometimes, without realizing it. I even put labels on myself. I’m constantly looking in the mirror and thinking “Wow, I look like such an loser” or “Wow, people must think I’m blah, blah, blah.” and it’s not healthy.

I wish I could say “I never judge anyone ever because people are just people” but I’d be lying, I judge people. I judge myself. I judge a lot of things! But, I think everyone at some point does.

Now, the second reason I wrote this is because I’m sick of being judged. Like I just said, everyone gets judged and everyone judges It can be possitively or negatively, but it happens to everyone. But, I guess I feel like I’m judged more than the average person. I’m what most define as “weird” or “creepy” or “depressing” and it’s not like I like being called that! I accept it, and most people get that confused with me embracing it. Well, I don’t.

So, after writing this, I thought a lot about people. I’m not racist or sexist or anything like that but I wondered why I judged anyone, even myself. Because, when you think about it, people are just people. For the most part, we all think about the same stuff and breathe the same air.

So from now on, I’m going to work on that. I’m going to try harder to just think of us all being the same and get over myself.

It has been a long time since I didn't update my blog. Well, sometimes I feel lazy to update nor upgrade my blog. Haha, anyway, it's not too late to wish; HAPPY RAMADHAN AL MUBARAK MUSLIMS!

Friday, May 17, 2013

What I've Learnt

  1. I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
  2. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
  3. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
  4. I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes. After that, you'd better know something.
  5. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.
  6. I've learned that it's not what happens to people that's important. It's what they do about it.
  7. I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
  8. I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
  9. I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.
  10. I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
  11. I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
  12. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
  13. I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
  14. I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
  15. I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.
  16. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
  17. I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.
  18. I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
  19. I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
  20. I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.
  21. I've learned that I'm getting more and more like my grandma, and I'm kinda happy about it.
  22. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
  23. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
  24. I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
  25. I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
  26. I've learned that you should never tell a child her dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if she believed it.
  27. I've learned that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.
  28. I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
  29. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
  30. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
  31. I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
  32. I've learned that sometimes when my friends fight, I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to.
  33. I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
  34. I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
  35. I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
  36. I've learned that if you don't want to forget something, stick it in your underwear drawer.
  37. I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
  38. I've learned that the clothes I like best are the ones with the most holes in them.
  39. I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
  40. I've learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.
  41. I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.
  42. I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life.
  43. I've learned that many things can be powered by the mind, the trick is self-control.
  44. I've learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.
  45. I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
  46. I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
  47. I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.
  48. I've learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.
  49. I've learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
  50. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
  51. I've learned that although the word "love" can have many different meaning, it loses value when overly used.
  52. I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

Finally, i'm back.

Assalamualaikum and Hey. Fuhh, after around 4 months, finally i'm back here! With new skin of course. So what to say what to say. So far, life was OK. Not really good, not really bad. And yah, i'm happy with my class even i can't accept 4 Iskandar at first. But now, it's different.

I'm currently facing the mid year examination. And have done 6 subjects so far, and just now Chemistry paper 1. I like learning chemistry but the thing is, my mind was blank when answering that paper. Only that paper. The other papers were okay and will be okay, insya Allah. I was about to "tiru" just now but, nah, I want to see my own ability, even though I didn't study for Chemistry :P

Monday, i'll be having Chemistry paper 2 and Mathematics. Well again, CHEMISTRY. I don't have chemistry with chemistry, it doesn't want to work out with me. Lol funny. Enough, enough with Chemistry. I don't know what to say now because it has been a long time ago since I updated my blog.

Just now Amir called me, he invited for the his sister's wedding tomorrow at SHAMS. But, i don't think I can go for that. He forced me to go, he wants to meet me. But, i just don't have time, i guess. Argh enough, let's talk about other random things.

Oh btw, it took around 3 hours to done and edit back this skin. When look at my blog back, i don't know what did I do. I just add some widgets and scroll bar, mouse, pages. Procrastinating always lead to disappointment. I should study just now, but i've wasted my time by editing this blog. Screw you blog.... and twitter.

I'll update soon, and I still remember that Ainatul did asked for 4 Iskandar's photos. Urmm, maybe after exam i'll update the pictures okay :) Oh btw, my whatsapp was corrupt just now. And all the convesations gone just like that. Argh so frustrating day. Kbye.

And it’s a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again and
You know it’s all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you’re getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do
And I’ll do anything to see it through

Thursday, January 17, 2013

First Post for 2013.

Assalamualaikum. Heya. As you see the title, this is my first post for 2013. and i know it's too late, but anyway happy new year guys! So, there are a lot of stories that i wanna tell but yet, i don't know where to start so yeah, i'm not going to share them here. 

So far, school is great. Yeah, now i know really how my seniors feel when we need to face all the unprecedented stress regarding high school lol. Upper form life is sucks. You wanna know why? With all the homework, friends and subjects. Garh. I'm starting to feel tired with all this shit. But sokay, it is too early to feel tired. 

As you can see, i'm trying to write this entry in English, because i'm trying to improve my English. Okay, so now, hm. Oh ya, about the giveaway thingy that i've joined before, i have no luck for that. Nevermind, maybe my luck will come soon. Okay, becomes an upper former student is totally not as what i expected before. I really thought it will be the same as lower form. Frankly, i'm wrong. 

So this year i suppose to take 10 subjects, but i'm too late to apply for the Account subject. So, i'm taking pure science course with 9 subjects terrace. There are; Bahasa Melayu, English, History, Pendidikan Agama Islam, Mathematics, Physics, Chemistry, Biology and Additional Mathematics. And of course i've already got my text books. Damn. I received 25 text books. Crazy isn't it? Lol.

So in Form 4, i'm learning Additional Mathematics which is a really picky subject. But luckily i have sporting and clever classmates (y) and yet, i have to end this entry because need to do tons of homeworks. Kbye.