Si Pengayuh Sampan.

Assalamualaikum.

Suatu hari, seorang professor ingin menyeberang sungai bersama dengan seorang pengayuh sampan dengan menaiki sampan. Semasa dalam perjalanan, si professor bertanya..

"Kamu tahu membaca dan menulis tak?"

"Tidak, saya buta huruf.." Jawab si pengayuh sampan.

"Kalau begitu, kamu sudah kehilangan separuh dari hidup kamu. Orang yang tidak pandai membaca dan menulis seolah-olah hilang separuh keupayaan hidup.."

Si pengayuh sampan hanya terdiam dan terus mengayuh sampan. Tidak lama kemudian, si professor bertanya lagi.. "Kamu ada buat simpanan di bank?"

"Tidak. Pendapatan saya hanya cukup-cukup makan sahaja. Macam mana mahu simpan di bank.."

"Kalau begitu kamu hilang lagi separuh kehidupan kamu. Mana mungkin orang yang tiada wang boleh hidup dengan senang di hari tua nanti.."

Si pengayuh sampan mendiamkan diri lagi. Sampan terus bergerak dengan keadaan air yang berombak-ombak. Setibanya di tengah sungai, tiba-tiba sampan itu bocor. Air berduyun-duyun masuk ke dalam sampan dan akan tenggelam pada bila-bila masa sahaja. Keadaan semakin tegang. Si pengayuh sampan bertanya kepada professor.. "Tuan, adakah tuan tahu berenang?"

"Tidak. Saya tak tahu." Jawab professor dengan cemasnya.

"Kalau begitu, tuan akan kehilangan seluruh hidup tuan!"

Pengajaran.

Allah tidak akan mencipta manusia itu untuk menjadi bodoh. Tetapi, Allah menjadikan setiap manusia mempunyai berlainan kelebihan dan kebijaksanaan. Jadi, kita janganlah menganggap diri kita ini hina. Sebaliknya, cari kelebihan diri dan asahnya sehingga menjadi setajam jarum. Setinggi mana pun kita belajar, kalau tak tahu ilmu hidup, susah jugak. Jadi, jangan riak dengan apa kita miliki. Kbye.

Your insecure. tenenenet. Don't know what for. tenenenet. EH?

So yeah, It's Friday.

Assalamualaikum.

Hmm, today is supposed to be a great day but yeah everything always ruined me up. Never mind, just start from the beginning. So pagi tadi ada bacaan Yassin and itu memang rutin harian Georgian setiap hari Jumaat pagi. And then, bila dah habis bacaan Yassin cikgu buat announcement yang lepas rehat semua pelajar kecuali 6 Rendah mesti masuk dalam dewan selepas rehat. So most of them like terpinga-pinga. But ramai jugak yang dah tahu, ada Majlis Penutup Sambutan Bulan Kemerdekaan. And then semua balik kelas. Belajar.

Masuk kelas, as usual mesti ada orang tanya "Weh, cikgu datang tak?" "Weh, harini belajar ke?" "Weh, lepas rehat ada ape?" Somehow tetiba aku rasa sedih sikit lah. Yelah, dorang nak PMR but the way dorang tanya like macam taknak cikgu masuk kelas je. Hmm, cubelah muhasabah diri sikit. Diri kita ni takdelah pandai mana, masih perlu menuntut ilmu, so cuba semangat sikit nak belajar. And, untuk semua soalan yang dorang tanya tuh, aku jawab "Entah." ENTAH. Satu perkataan yang selalu digunakan untuk selamatkan diri kita sendiri, right?

Suddenly, cikgu Fadzilah masuk. Wow, dua hari dah teacher tak masuk kelas and finally today teacher masuk pun. Actually I have to admit this. Masa aku Form 1, aku serius tak suka kelas English. Sebab markah aku asyik rendah je. Masuk Form 2, aku start suka, tapi markah aku still rendah je. So then, aku start tak suka. Bila masuk Form 3, aku mengakulah yang aku suka gila English. Tambah lagi bila dapat cikgu Fadzilah yang ajar, memang awesomeee (y) But teacher macam takde mood je harini.. Masuk kelas je, dah marah-marah.  Hmm, I know you know the real story right? Nevermind, itulah cabaran menjadi seorang guru. And then, teacher suruh susun meja like in exam sebab nak buat TFE 2. Time part ni je aku suka, 3 tahun aku sekolah KGV, English aku tak pernah A. Sekali TFE English ni, aku dapat 80. Mak aih, punyelah suka aku time tu. Teacher pun tersenyum lebar tengok aku. Even yang highest 90, but aku bersyukur sangat dapat A for TFE English. First time A for English. Haha. Bayangkanlah, TFE 1 haritu aku dapat 65. TFE 2 dapat 80. Gila kau tak happy? Haha. And on that time, I think that today will be the best day of my life. But, I was wrong..

And then rehat. Sebelum rehat, teacher ada pesan, teacher nak nama dua orang guru yang akan ikut kelas kitorang pergi lawatan nanti. So time rehat tu pun, aku carilah Ustaz Roslan and Cikgu Rahimie. Aku cari sepanjang waktu rehat tu, tak jumpa pun. Bila nak habis rehat, barulah aku jumpa Ustaz Roslan. Lepas dah mintak apa yang patut, nak cari pulak cikgu Rahimie. Tak jumpa. Hmm, rehat dah habis, so apa lagi masuk dewan leww.

Masuk dewan, still mencari. But tak jumpa. Then buat keputusan cari cikgu lepas dah habis majlis. So here it's begin. Masa start, semuanya okay. But then, I just realized something. "Why are you still staying here?" "What do you mean?" "Are you fucking blind? Everybody is ignoring you. Can't you see?" "Then, what do you expect me to do?" "Just leave this school and start your new life." "But... I know there must be a reason why I must stay here." "No, there musn't. You're so damn useless." "Well, I know that. But this is my life, so i'm just go with the flow.." "Without anyone beside you?" "Yes." "You're so lifeless. Just go kill yourself." "Nah, you are much better to kill yourself and go away from my soul." "You're a loser, can't you see?" "You win. You just ruined this whole day." Monolog apa tu? Haih. Entahlah. Sometimes, I feel like want to move to another school but there are a lot of memories that I've been through here. Seriously, I don't mind being alone all the time...if I know somebody out there is really needs me in their life. 

And then, semua orang berdiri nak nyanyi lagu 1 Malaysia tu. Wow, that was soooooo great! Georgian semua nyanyi lagu tu dengan semangatnya. Haha. I'm proud to be a Georgian. Dah habis majlis tu, nampak cikgu Rahimie. And then aku jumpa cikgu Rahimie and aku tanyalah boleh join kelas kitorang pergi lawatan ke tak. What a sad life, cikgu kata cikgu busy, cikgu tak boleh pergi.. Mood aku hilang terus actually time tu.. Takpelah.. Anyway, I think no one might to read this. But if anyone did, just keep it silent. Because, aku tak suka orang kesian dekat aku lepas baca entri ni. Aku tulis apa yang aku rasa kat sini sebab... you know.. Kbye.

49 Day Honesty Challenge

Assalamualaikum.

Lately ni banyak benda yang nak cerita tapi malas nak cerita. Lol, lawak apakah itu? Huh. Last-last jumpa bendalah ni dekat Tumblr, balun jelah. At least, berupdatelah jugak kan? So, let's the adventure begin!

Your ex texted you and wanted you back. Would you take him/her back?

Hmm, nah.

Has anyone told you “forever and ever” then left?

A lot.

Your relationship status?

Single, double, plural..... huh anything.

Have you ever lost a close friend?

Lol, for sure...................Yes.

Do you smoke weed regularly?

I do eat seaweed, but not smoke weed. Haha

Think back to the beginning of 2011. Are you still dating the same person?

Aha, yes.

Would you parents be mad if you were in a relationship?

No if i can manage myself to study and get better result in exam.

When was the last time you really laughed?

Ermm, i don't know. I think, around two or three months ago?

Something is wrong. First person you turn too?

Lol, you know who....

First girl you’d turn to?

Hmmm, i think you know too.... Lol

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you because of something you did?

I guess yes. Ya well every people make mistakes, and i did a lot of mistake before. So yeah..

Angry at anyone?

Hmmm, until now, i think, nope..

What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?

My insecure..

When was the last time you cried really hard?

Three weeks ago, i guess?

Is there anyone you would do anything for?

Yes, the person who are really there for me ;)

Who was the last person you talked to for more than 10 minutes on the phone?

More than 10 minutes? Alia, Irdina and Huda. 

What is your favorite song?

When You're Gone, by Avril Lavigne.

Do you like Red Bull?

Huh? Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

How many people can you tell just about everything to?

only 2...

Have you ever wished on a shooting star?

Lol no. 

Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?

Yeeeeeesssss! Guess who?

Describe yourself in one word.

Lonely?

Do you have anything that belongs to your ex?

Yes....................

Can you honestly say you’ve had a sleepover with the opposite gender?

With my cousin? Haha

Do you rebound?

I guess.. I can't guess... Nope.

Ever cheated on someone?

Yes... But ya sokay..

What would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship?

I know i couldn't do anything for her but ya i'll be waiting.. If she still cannot see my existence, maybe I'll move on with some scars maybe?

Do you act differently around the person you like?

Well, not totally different, but just a bit, maybe? Lol

Honestly, what guy’s number do you have memorized?

Lelaki ke? Aha, aiman jelah kot.. and my father's number :3

Is it hard to make you laugh?

Well, sometimes..

Who was the last person to make you mad?

My classmate?

Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?

I don't want that........ Lol

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms?

My mom...

Has anyone ever called you scrumptious before?

Hahahahahaha yes yes yes! Lol xD

Would you like to put a night on repeat and live it forever?

Sometimes...

Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?

Yes, my deskmate.. 

Is your best friend a slut?

Hotakmu tanya cengginih kuajaq -.-

Is hard drugs a turn off?

Yes, totally!

Are you happy with life right now?

Kinda.. But not at all..

Are you still in love with your ex?

Nah.

Are you still in love with your ex?

Sepak kang tanya sekali sudahlah -.-

Have you ever been the “other person” in a relationship?

No...

Have you ever had your heart broken?

Yes, always..

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Haih, yes.. Yesterday.. I'm always dissapoint them who are close to me. Haih..

Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in?

I guess no.

Where is your best friend?

I think it should be ARE not IS -.- Come to my school and i'll show them. 

Something you’re happy about?

Someone who appreciate what i've done ;)

How is your heart lately?

Well still can pump my blood to the whole body.. I mean, still can working greatly..

Ada yang minat nak try ke bendalah ni? Saya jumpa kat sini, kalau nak klik lah. Cukup 49 dah jawab.

Kertas kerja lawatan tak siap ada hati update blog, ceh -,-

Kbye.